I decided to write this blog with the purpose of documenting my healing process, during a very tumultuous divorce. It's been six months since I separated physically from my husband. I say this cause, I felt our relationship ended last June. I wasn't until this past January I had the strength to confront my fear. It was very important for me to look back on what had happened to me. The depression, the constant roller coaster ride, the physical pain, forgetting events, isolating from people I cared about, constantly being sick and Dr's not finding any physical problems just emotional despair. But shame to acknowledge that I was emotionally abused kept me from realizing I was living a nightmare marriage. It has taking me a year to to heal and I am still in this process. I've reach out to people I chose to isolate from, since my husband slowly convinced me they were no good for me. I obeyed every demand but it was never enough to please him. I became what he needed and lost who I was in the process. Afraid to lose my children I kept myself in this destructive relationship. One of many things I hope to accomplish now is to let women know that it gets better and if they see themselves in me, they can follow the steps I've taken to break free. The most important breakthrough was that I didn't want my children to repeat the pattern. I didn't want them to believe my relationship with their dad was was a healthy one. Since I am still in the process of my divorce I wish to maintain anonymous, but soon I will let the world know who I am. For now I want to let the Universe know that I am a Beautiful, Fearless, Independent,and Empowered Woman.
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